"Hidden Nature" #1

Each and everyone of us is different. We all come in different SHAPES and SIZES – we have different likes and dislikes, we have different characteristics and personalities, we have different thoughts and ideas about different things, we are different-physically. Different as in DIFFERENT. Although we have these differences, all of us want to understand each other and communicate well because we live together in the same world, we want to meet different individuals at the middle where we can connect with each other and create balance and harmony around us.

We say that we are different from other people. How are we different? What makes us different really? I mean the thing that can signify our INDIVIDUALITY – the thing that can distinguish you from others, the thing that you only have that others cannot get. Do you know the thing that can separate you from others? Do you know what makes you – YOU? Find yourself and just think of your best asset.

To tell you honestly, it’s not easy to know your best asset if you don’t know who you are. You have to know yourself and find the inner you. You have to know what makes you unique from others.

What makes me unique? I’m having a hard time thinking about the thing that makes me unique. You know, a lot of people tell me that my best asset is my long, brown beautiful hair, others tell me that it’s my skin complexion. Not to be brag about it but my hair is my crowning glory. I love my hair and I’ve put much effort on beautifying it, but I don’t think that it’s my best asset. Talking about my skin complexion, it’s really quite fair, I admit that my skin complexion is much more fairer than others but I don’t know why some people say that it’ my best asset. I consider my hair and my complexion to be one of my greatest assets but not the best. When you say best asset, it means the best – the one that makes you stands out from others.

I am just a simple girl, but, what is special about me? You want to know? I’ll tell you. It’s the thing that can’t be perceived, the thing that can’t be reached by light – the thing that is hidden captive. “What it takes to be me is – my PERSONALITY”. My personality is what makes me different from others – my personality to interact with my surroundings and to other people. My personality is my best asset.

My PERSONALITY – I find it rather unusual. People who don’t know me might have a hard time understanding me. Even my friends don’t know me very well. I myself get confused sometimes with my personality.

 I am a person who is hard to figure out. I present myself in a kind and gentle manner that I could to create the impression of being friendly. I want to have a good impression on people. Although, I admit that I am a shy person and I’m not fond of mingling with others. It’s not that I don’t like them nor am I afraid of them, actually, I want to reach out to people but I’m having a hard time expressing myself. I’m not used to mingling with other people really, because I’m afraid of people seeing my flaws. Although, I exert an effort to know the people around me. I can mingle, I can easily cooperate with people, and I can adapt to changes but it takes a lot of time for me to get used to it. But mostly, I want to be alone. I want to distant myself to others. I’m comfortable being alone because it makes it easier for me to do things. It’s really ironic – I want to but at the same time I don’t.

I am quite misunderstood and judge by some people. They sometimes perceive me as snobbish and “arte” because of how I project myself and because I’m reluctant in exchanging words with them. It’s my nature, my defense mechanism, so that people can’t say terrible thing about me. It’s just that I don’t want to make long conversations and give away something that might startle people, but I want to socialize, I just don’t know how.

One thing though, I am really sensitive. I am a keen observer – I look at things critically, although, you might not notice it. I want the people to think that I care less of other people’s business, but the truth is I am concerned. I am concerned with my surroundings. The activities that people do everyday, the things that they engage themselves into that causes trouble for others, especially the offensive things; it worries me, for the people that will be affected. I actually want to help others.  I want to make changes for the good of all that is living. For now, I can only do little things, but even that little thing can somehow make a difference. I am driven to help people, even animals, or any living creatures in this world. It’s actually in my nature too – my determination to help others. It’s not always clear to me why I get so affected by things that may or may not concern me, but somehow I don’t show any signs of struggle. It’s just in my heart that I want to help but I don’t how to do it.

It’s simple really – I am not outspoken. I simply feel things but don’t show my feelings to others. But maybe, in the long run, I will definitely change for the better. I whole-heartedly accept it as my nature – my best asset. Being modest can actually do me good, although, sometimes it can be a disadvantage. Even so, being myself is what makes me different – what makes me UNIQUE.